Hello, everyone. Believe or not, I just finished a research paper right now at 4:30 am in the morning. I am on a high of reading, writing, researching, and editing. Dios Mio! I am mentally exhausted but feeling oddly enough quite optimistic. I don’t know why. But I thank God for this momentary, well, hopefully, full-time optimism.
For the previous blog, I wrote that my aunt is critical condition. She had a stroke just last week I believe. One main artery is 100% clogged, and they can’t save it. The second main artery, as a relative explained it to me, is 90% clogged. We thought she was going to pass away Monday or Tuesday. By Wednesday, I believe they told us she would have surgery in about two weeks. Well, yesterday, Thursday, a friend who lives close to her (I live about two hours away, about,) told us that they rushed her to have the surgery. Sighs…by this time, I’m already stuck in that California traffic and going home. I wish they would have said something but her life partner or “husband” and the other primary caretaker, my uncle, for some reason communicate sporadically with the rest of the family. I don’t know why. Maybe they’re too stressed out.
I’m glad I visited her this week. I’ll leave the gory details out right now because it was somewhat emotional. At the same time, though, she had a great sense of humor interestingly enough. I felt confused. Should I cry? Or laugh? Or both? Who knows. haha
I have gotten behind on all my studies! It’s horrible. I’ve missed classes, run late, missed assignments. It’s just horrifying to me. I don’t like to miss class or be late or miss assignments. But what can I do? I can’t be a robot and pretend nothing is wrong. I am thankful that all my professors have been very understanding. I thought at some point, they were going to get angry or misinterpret my character as a great student. But it has been none of that. They’ve been supportive. After this weekend, though, I think I should be on track.
For now, once again, my aunt is in stable condition. We still don’t know if she’s going to make it or not. She’s 67 years, has diabetes, and just had a stroke. She’s so strong, though. But her lungs are also affecting her because she’s been smoking for over thirty years. We’ll see what life says.
A night ago, I only slept four hours. I had too much to do, and I still couldn’t finish things on time…sighs. Tonight, no hours of sleep. Hopefully, I can rest a few hours without interruption. I have so much to do. However, I need to rest now. I am not sure why I am writing this blog. It seems like it just serves me to complain and or therapy writing. I have to apologize for this blog. I hope everyone is doing great! Good night? 4:58 am now. Wow…