It was the middle of the night, and I woke to some nuisance. I turned the night lamp on, and there it was a small moth. Making my life impossible as I tried to sleep. I’m not a big fan of killing any type of living things, even bugs. I don’t like killing moths.
On this particular night, I was ready to murder that little moth. My night lamp isn’t bright enough to cover the whole room. So, it was dark for the most part. Every time the moth disappeared into the dark side I could not kill it, I mean, obviously. I aimed at it, in the darkness anyway, because I knew it wanted to rise to the light. If I killed before reaching the light, then I wouldn’t have to see the murder scene, nor care about it. It was so much easier to hit it when it was in the view. I lost even with the light on my side. Eventually, I gave up, and I didn’t have to feel guilty about killing it.
When I woke up, the whole scenario with the moth made me think of a few things. People don’t see you in the dark. People don’t notice you when you’re a “nobody.” Then it hits you, I want to shine, brightly. That’s when people notice. Now, because you’re struggling in between light and dark, people think it’s okay to put you down and exploit you. “Oh, you want to reach the light. You’re going to have to pay the price for it.” Had you stayed in the dark, no one would have cared. Nonetheless, because you’re trying to rise like the Phoenix, you are now in people’s view–in the view of both dream killers and supporters. And we all know how much louder the haters are than those who genuinely cheer you on. Then there are those who supposedly cheer for you, but they secretly hope you die with all your dreams–maybe not literally…I hope.
The persistent little moth taught me something, imagine, a moth taught a human being with rational thoughts something very valuable—unbelievable! It’s like a miracle of God to me. It taught me that those who attempt to keep you away from shinning will have to give up and go to sleep. But you must persevere despite all the hands trying to slaughter your dreams, trying to murder you in your chaos.
But if you want to shine, you have to embrace the chaotic side. To soar like an eagle, or in this case like that little moth, light and darkness, chaos and order, are elements that you have to accept in your life—this leads to maturity, triumph, and perseverance. It’s not something that I practice entirely in my own life, admittedly. Accepting both chaos and order are worlds that slowly begin to sink in my mind and life. I have a lot to grow and learn from in this paradoxical life, similar to how I learned from the little moth. What else can I learn out there in this enormous galaxy?
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Isiah 40:31—”But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”
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