I Give Up…

Hello, All. It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I’ve been working really hard to become a teacher. However, I’ve hit major roadblocks in attempting to pursue a career as a professor. It’s been about a year or more, and the bolts to those doors appear completely locked. Excuse the way I am going to express myself at the moment. But I am fed up with people. I’m a hard worker, and people don’t seem to give a shit about that part. At the high school that promised me a full-time teaching position, they never gave me an opportunity. I also applied to my local college, and they replied that my application was incomplete. It wasn’t. I asked them to please let me know what was incomplete about it, they never replied.

One of my mentors explained to me that to be a full-time college professor, you first have to be exploited for years. I have to accept all these part-time teaching positions because colleges aren’t hiring full-timers. So I have to waste money on gas because these other colleges are located about an hour or more away from where I live, and not to mention the deterioration of my car.

Any of these people that know my work ethic are perfectly aware that I am a responsible person, a hard worker, and I am capable of teaching. However, the doors don’t seem to open. I’m a person of faith, and I believe that things happen for a reason. I am no longer pursuing a career in teaching. I no longer want to cope with these issues. I am not the only one struggling with these problems in the education system. Some have a blessed opportunity. But many of us, we have to get exploited first, have a really close connection, or kiss a lot of ass to get an opportunity. I am neither an ass kisser nor one to allow people to step all over me, especially because I’ve worked really hard. Perhaps those in charge are of the mentality, “Well, I got exploited. You need to too.” I don’t think so.

Is this blog mainly about a personal rant? Yes, it is. I have personal and professional recommendations letters that support my potential as a teacher. I know how to communicate well, and students like me as a teacher. But what is going on with those in charge of the hiring? Do I seem too ambitious? Too young? Too old? And why is it a crime to want to work full-time? Why do I have to get exploited before obtaining an opportunity to work as a full-time professor? I don’t understand that part. I just don’t get it. For now, I quit the idea of teaching.

I’ve decided to pursue a different career from now on. Some see it as giving up. But I’ve tried for a good while now. I simply see it as a sign to pursue something else and create new opportunities. All these people might have closed the door on me. In spite of it all, I am in charge of seeking other doors. I don’t let my guard or arms fall. I have to keep moving.

Is it frustrating and stressful? Very much so. Is it happy times? Not at all. I’ve learned to embrace loss, failure, and doors shut in my face for a good while now. None of them have stopped me because I trust that God will lead me to the right path. I don’t like to pretend there are rays shining in the darkness. Darkness and loss do not equal sunshine and happiness. They equal to times of trial. In these times, we sit still, listen, and learn.

I hope you all have a great rest of your week. Thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate it.

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